Today my friend Whitney shared this video on her Instagram story... For the past few days I've had a prompting to dust off this blog and share "my unspeakable" - well one of them. The other one will have to wait until my bravery builds up a bit more. I've shared this with a few select souls and I do have a testimony that you can use your trials to help others. So that is what my hope is in sharing this with more of you. Since I was younger I've dealt with anxiety and depression. When I had babies it got worse. After I had Ames it was so debilitating I really thought I'd be sent to the loony bin. I still feel guilt for the precious time with him as a newborn that I feel I lost because my brain was sick. By the time he was about 6 months old it had finally tapered off for the most part. About a year later, Soren was on his way, and I was scared to death that it would overtake me again. The first few months with him actually ended up being pretty gre...